another week down.
I don't feel like posting this week's food log, but for the most part it was better than last week.
I lost 2.6 lbs, for a total loss of 31.2 lbs. I have to say, I feel pretty awesome right now.
Last sunday marked two months of weight watchers. I would have written about it last week, but I didn't even realize it. That kind of characterizes my whole diet style this time around - while I am conscious of making better decisions, and I am rigidly aware of how many points i've consumed, I don't feel...I don't know, overwhelmed or pressured by it. That doesn't sound right...but my point is that this is way easier than any other time I've attempted weight loss, too. The last time I made a serious effort and stuck to it, I lost 34 lbs before falling off the wagon completely. So if I can lose 3.8 lbs, I'll have surpassed that milestone. And honestly, it just hasn't felt all that hard.
Granted, there are days when I would give ANYTHING to be that girl who can eat what she wants and not worry about the consequences. And there are days when I don't eat perfectly, or I binge and feel bad. But mostly, those kinds of days are in the minority.
In news that's semi-depressing, I am now at the exact same weight I was the last time I started dieting significantly. Which means in two years i managed to gain 31.2 lbs. Gross. Why do I let that happen to myself? It's sad, really.
But I'm done talking about sad things. Right now, I'm focused on my successes, and the fact that I want to continue doing this. I don't even feel one little inkling of regret that I'm dieting, which, usually by now is rampant.
I will say, though, that I think I need to start getting stricter again, just for a little bit. Mostly I need to stop overloading on the carbs. I'll have waffles, mini bagels, or english muffins for breakfast, which is fine, but I looooove terrible terrible crunchy snacks. And I know that I'm so bad at saying no to myself that I can't even buy the big bags - so I cough up the extra money and buy the snack sizes, for portion control. Unfortunately, that system breaks down when you let yourself have three or four snack bags in a sitting. NOT exactly good for me. So I think that I'm going to crack down on that this week. I know exactly where this is headed, since I've been in this *exact* same place before, so I am going to head it off now.
Of course, this week comes with a family labor day gathering and a cubs game on Tuesday night (!!!) and my semi-weekly coffee house date with my fave coworker, where i always order a delicious chai tea. so there will actually be more "eating out" than normal, which is fine. i just need to keep it under control here at home, where I can.
In other news, I treated myself to two new pairs of shoes for hitting the 30-lbs-lost mark. One is a pair of tweed mary-jane stilettoes (well, 3" heel) with a peep toe. I am so into pumps right now, even for school which is usually a big fat no-no. They are supremely comfortable, though, and they are SO CUTE. Good with pants or a skirt. And a pair of chocolate brown suede boots that will be great once fall rolls around. Sigh, shoes = love.
In 18.8 lbs, I will have lost 50lbs, which is freaking unfathomable to me. But for that particular reward I have earmarked two things. First of all, I have been eyeing these blue and white Pumas for a while now, but they are quite a bit of money. I like the retro vibe of the blue but the classic Puma look. Of course, they also have a lot of other colors/styles, so I don't know for sure yet which ones I want. But, if - nay, when - I lose 50 lbs, they shall be mine, in some form. And secondly, a new pair of jeans. Right now, I have a closet full of pants that have fit me in various stages of my fatness (what, too harsh?) so I can't *really* justify new ones. But as a reward, I WILL get myself a new pair that fit better than any of my old ones, and that look better too.
Yikes...totally bed time :)
I lost 2.6 lbs, for a total loss of 31.2 lbs. I have to say, I feel pretty awesome right now.
Last sunday marked two months of weight watchers. I would have written about it last week, but I didn't even realize it. That kind of characterizes my whole diet style this time around - while I am conscious of making better decisions, and I am rigidly aware of how many points i've consumed, I don't feel...I don't know, overwhelmed or pressured by it. That doesn't sound right...but my point is that this is way easier than any other time I've attempted weight loss, too. The last time I made a serious effort and stuck to it, I lost 34 lbs before falling off the wagon completely. So if I can lose 3.8 lbs, I'll have surpassed that milestone. And honestly, it just hasn't felt all that hard.
Granted, there are days when I would give ANYTHING to be that girl who can eat what she wants and not worry about the consequences. And there are days when I don't eat perfectly, or I binge and feel bad. But mostly, those kinds of days are in the minority.
In news that's semi-depressing, I am now at the exact same weight I was the last time I started dieting significantly. Which means in two years i managed to gain 31.2 lbs. Gross. Why do I let that happen to myself? It's sad, really.
But I'm done talking about sad things. Right now, I'm focused on my successes, and the fact that I want to continue doing this. I don't even feel one little inkling of regret that I'm dieting, which, usually by now is rampant.
I will say, though, that I think I need to start getting stricter again, just for a little bit. Mostly I need to stop overloading on the carbs. I'll have waffles, mini bagels, or english muffins for breakfast, which is fine, but I looooove terrible terrible crunchy snacks. And I know that I'm so bad at saying no to myself that I can't even buy the big bags - so I cough up the extra money and buy the snack sizes, for portion control. Unfortunately, that system breaks down when you let yourself have three or four snack bags in a sitting. NOT exactly good for me. So I think that I'm going to crack down on that this week. I know exactly where this is headed, since I've been in this *exact* same place before, so I am going to head it off now.
Of course, this week comes with a family labor day gathering and a cubs game on Tuesday night (!!!) and my semi-weekly coffee house date with my fave coworker, where i always order a delicious chai tea. so there will actually be more "eating out" than normal, which is fine. i just need to keep it under control here at home, where I can.
In other news, I treated myself to two new pairs of shoes for hitting the 30-lbs-lost mark. One is a pair of tweed mary-jane stilettoes (well, 3" heel) with a peep toe. I am so into pumps right now, even for school which is usually a big fat no-no. They are supremely comfortable, though, and they are SO CUTE. Good with pants or a skirt. And a pair of chocolate brown suede boots that will be great once fall rolls around. Sigh, shoes = love.
In 18.8 lbs, I will have lost 50lbs, which is freaking unfathomable to me. But for that particular reward I have earmarked two things. First of all, I have been eyeing these blue and white Pumas for a while now, but they are quite a bit of money. I like the retro vibe of the blue but the classic Puma look. Of course, they also have a lot of other colors/styles, so I don't know for sure yet which ones I want. But, if - nay, when - I lose 50 lbs, they shall be mine, in some form. And secondly, a new pair of jeans. Right now, I have a closet full of pants that have fit me in various stages of my fatness (what, too harsh?) so I can't *really* justify new ones. But as a reward, I WILL get myself a new pair that fit better than any of my old ones, and that look better too.
Yikes...totally bed time :)
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